Kelly Laura

MMCC

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 23:57:40 -0400

So I contacted mid Michigan Community College again. And after talking to them they never emailed me back. I can’t believe them. I really would not recommend that anyone ever attend that school. They’re quite possibly the worst school in Michigan. They don’t get back to you. They don’t mail, or email you any details, and they take forever to get anything done. I seriously cannot believe all of the problems that i have had with them. I sent in transcripts and it literally took 3 months for them even to look at them. Unbelievable! And they didn’t do anything until I started bothering them about it. HATE THIS SCHOOL!!!! I am going back to the University of Nebraska at Kearney instead. That school is pretty great. They always are willing to help you out.

Next steps...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 23:47:53 -0400

So, I think that one of my next steps will be to become a certified personal trainer. I just think that would be a cool job, but I need to get into really good shape first. I know that the actually test will be pretty easy, but it is just the cost that is going to make me really have to wait awhile. It is going to be difficult to get the money and stuff done. I am working on getting this job in Marquette right now. We will see if I get it. I am not sure if I will or not, but I am going to try. The pay is good, but I will have to live in Marquette for at least a year. Burr…..it’s cold there. Not sure that I really want to go there, but I need to make some money so that I can work on my next adventure. I also sent in my TV proposal last night. Nervous about it. I really just need that validation from a professional, saying that my work is good enough. If I could get that then I will be able to keep working on things. I have too much to do, it’s starting to make me tired.

Mid Michigan Community College

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 12:43:19 -0400

I just want to say that Mid Michigan Community College sucks! You do not know how much trouble I have had with the people at this school. All I wanted to do was take a few classes. They really have made what should be a somewhat simple thing into a monumental task. No help, no communication, or when they finally do communicate you get attitude. I email and never get responses. They are the absolute worst. If you have a choice, go somewhere else.

Pain

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 16:10:09 -0400

Sometimes, I hurt so bad because I get treated like such crap by the people that are supposed to care about me. I can’t take it anymore. I had to move back in with my mom and she is the worst. She constantly yells and talks down to me, but if I tell her that I am upset about it she blows me off. She makes everything about her and then when I call her on it, she tells me to shut up. I hate my life and have had a lot of bad thoughts later because of it. I am seriously very close to the edge right now. I am looking for new jobs so that I can move out. I can’t handle it anymore. I don’t know what my life is about anymore, everything is so negative now.

Another day, Another issue

Sat, 01 Jun 2013 13:44:30 -0400

I honestly just wish that I had people in my life that gave a damn about me. Everyone wants something from me. I give them what they want and then I get treated like dirt. I honestly don’t know why I keep helping people that have me last on their lost of priorities. People really suck.

Working on a new script and trying out some info that I found...

Thu, 16 May 2013 23:11:17 -0400

Working on a new script and trying out some info that I found online at thescriptlab.com . Should be interesting. It’s a short screenplay but still trying to follow 3 act structure. We’ll see if it works.

Submitted

Tue, 07 May 2013 20:32:03 -0400

I sent in my 15 pages this morning. Nervous, but I hope that I make it. It would really help me out a lot. If I don’t though, its OK. I will finish the screenplay on my own. Am really hoping to get that expert help though. All that I have learned about screenwriting comes from reading books and screenplays of other writers. I could really use that person that will tell if what I am doing is actually any good. Well, we will know in a few weeks anyway. Now to work on other stuff. Busy.

Did it.

Mon, 06 May 2013 23:48:45 -0400

Finally finished my first 15 pages for the screenwriting contest. I think it turned out pretty well and tomorrow I am going to email it. Just have to check for spelling and stuff, then it will be ready. Not sure if it is a winner or not but you never know. I read some of the past finalists scripts and I hate to say it but they were nothing really special. I think mine is more entertaining, but not sure if it will be a finalist. May be too commercial. Screenwriting contests tends to learn toward independent-style scripts. Only have to wait a few weeks to find out if I am a finalist though. We’ll see but I have a really good feeling about it. I am also entering the TV pilot contest. I have a great idea for an hour long pilot. Almost have it done and ready to turn in. Then I have a great idea for a comedy pilot. I will probably work on the comedy pilot first. Should be fun.

Done...

Sun, 05 May 2013 21:31:56 -0400

I am seriously done. I hate everyone right now. I have been through so much lately without 1 person being there for ME. Everyone wants something from me, but they never want to do anything for ME. I really need to get out on my own and just be by myself for awhile. I can’t take it anymore. No one is ever around when I need them, but they are always calling, or texting, me and wanting me to get stuff done right away for them. It’s disgusting to have so many people in your life that suck so much. I haven’t had a good day in a while. I really need to get some money so I can get the hell out of here…

I like this one better. The other one made my skin look weird.

Sun, 05 May 2013 14:35:44 -0400

I like this one better. The other one made my skin look weird.

Ready to work on my screenplay for a contest. Had to get some...

Sun, 05 May 2013 13:18:07 -0400

Ready to work on my screenplay for a contest. Had to get some new glasses to be able to see what I am working on. No makeup and glasses. No really a good look for me.

Change

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 18:36:19 -0400

So, today I decided that I am moving out of this house before Fall. Not sure where I am moving yet, but I am definitely not sticking around. I just cannot handle it here. I am going to spend a lot of time this summer away from this house. Moving back join with my Mom was a huge mistake, but I really don’t want to leave my dog. She has to stay here because she is so old and has a hard time getting around. I am thinking about moving to mount pleasant in order to stay close to my dog but still being away from here. May do that for a year or so and then see what I want to do. Ugh!

It's time!

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 22:18:02 -0400

Even though I have been one of those people that believe that every one is perfect just the way they are, I have to propose the question, what if you are not happy the way you are? Do you change yourself? I have made the decision that I need to make a lot of changes. I want to do certain things and I have to make changes in order to accomplish my goals. It is not going to be easy, but I know that I can do it. More importantly, I need to make those changes, so I will. I can’t take anymore time because my window of opportunity is quickly closing.

I need to lose weight
I need to get a job before Fall
I need to get a new car
I want to start my own business
I want to sell a screenplay
I want to travel

Losing weight is step one for a reason. It will make then other goals easier to accomplish. I am going to start eating better and working out more. I really think I can do it if I try my hardest. I am also working on entries into some screenwriting contests the next few weeks. I hope I win…

Crap

Sat, 16 Mar 2013 09:35:30 -0400

I have to say that, right now, I am so sick of everyone. I hate all people and even my family. I wish that I could say that everyone is awesome and supportive, but guess what, they aren’t, and they suck ass sometimes. I really just want to get out of here and this town. As soon as I can, I am moving to either Las Vegas or Los Angeles. I am just not sure how long I can handle it here.

Just me again

Sun, 24 Feb 2013 21:36:23 -0500

Just me again

Maybe I'll be there next year...

Sun, 24 Feb 2013 21:19:17 -0500

I am sitting here watching the Oscars telecast and working on my screenplay for the Nicholl Fellowship. I dream of one day being mentioned in the same breath as those that are nominated this year for screenwriting. Winning that fellowship would mean everything to me, but if it doesn’t happen, I will survive. It would just make things a little easier. At least initially. Really hope my script at least makes it to the quarterfinals though. That would be awesome.

Poem I wrote a long time ago...

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 17:48:47 -0500

It’s kind of stupid. I wrote it when I was in High School and it was published. I can’t remember where though.

Long Rant

by Kelly Laura

Girl meets boy
Boy snubs girl
Isn’t that the way it is for us in the real world?
You always fall for the one you can’t have or something like that
That’s what they tell us less fortunate
Less fortunate because we’re not little Miss perfect
So what, I wasn’t voted most popular maybe I wanna be myself
Is that ok with society?
Who cares, who dares shy away from the norm
Normal is boring
I wanna jump off track and never look back
It’s really hard to be a girl these days.

I messed up my hair and took an instagram pic. Man my lips look...

Wed, 20 Feb 2013 09:47:20 -0500

I messed up my hair and took an instagram pic. Man my lips look freaking huge in this pic. Wow, is it terrible. lol..

Working...

Sat, 16 Feb 2013 12:02:42 -0500

I am working on so much stuff right now it is crazy. Never been so busy before. Working on my screenplay and graphic design work while I’m also doing school work. I set a deadline for myself. I am forcing myself to finish my screenplay by the end of August. So, I have about 6 and a half months to finish it. I hope I can do it in that amount of time. We’ll have to wait and see. It’s taking a long time to finish it and I think that its because it is my first real screenplay. I have never written a full script before so it is kind of different. I keep writing down ideas for my next project but I haven’t finish this one yet. I have to finish this one and then get some people to read it, make edits, and then I am going to start sending out query letters. I think that it is pretty amazing so far, but I wrote it so I am a little bias. I am going to send it to some literary agents and producers before the end of the year and by that time I will be working on my next screenplay. still have to finish this semester then I have a lot of time this summer to work on stuff, but I start at a different school in the Fall to work on a visual arts degree. I may also see about some photography jobs this summer. I am exhausted all ready going to have to start taking some vitamins, lol.

Making plans

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 19:10:11 -0500

Sometimes I really think I can see things finally coming together but then they don’t and then I get discouraged and quit. I know that I can’t do that this time. The time for playing games has to be over. I have come to the conclusion that if I want to make it work, I have to keep at it until it finally works. It is hard for me to just not have things work right away. I just have a hard time not succeeding. I want to achieve my dreams and I know it is going to take a long time to get there too. I just need to start making some money. Do I stay in Michigan a little longer and get a job here temporarily or do i leave? My dog is so old and if I leave I can’t really take her with me, and I would hate to not be here for her if she needs me. But if I wait then I might not be able to get a job right away around here. I am not sure what to do. I am so confused.

I need a real plan. Hopefully things will go better with my coaching and I won’t need to get a job. I hope so. I hate the idea of getting a job at a school or something. Oh well. If i have to, then I have to.