Kelly Laura

I enrolled in the professional photography program at the New York Institute of Photography. So excited. It is really going to be interesting. I think that I am going to learn a lot too.  I have been thinking about it for a really long time but I have been reading this book for a few days and it really says that if you want something you have to take steps to get it right now. Even if you don’t think that you are ready. I was going to wait a few months and then decide but why wait right? It is something that I want to do and need to do to succeed. Why wait? It is the first time in a long time that I have just done something that I want to do and not analyzed my thought to death. I usually do that and then talk myself out of it, but not this time. I am doing it. I am also applying for an internship for the summer in photography. If I get it, I hope I will be able to use some of those photos for assignments and my portfolio. Still going to go to UNK to finish my master’s degree and to MMCC to take some graphic design classes too. This is going to be a very busy couple of years. Plus I need to find a job at least part-time. Busy, Busy, Busy!

I don’t think I need a degree in visual arts to do what I want to do, so i am going to just get an aa in art. Then take the professional photography course through NYIP. It looks like something i would really be into. I know. I change my mind a lot but I do think that this is for the best. I don’t think that I am going to learn what i want to learn about photography in the visual arts program. I also want to learn how to run a photography business so i think that NYIP is the best plan. I want to be a professional photographer so I think I need more personal guidance and I think I will get it there and not at MMCC. I am going to take a few graphic design classes at MMCC though and start an art portfolio. Plus I am still going to attend UNK to get my masters degree with art concentration. This should be a good compromise.

I thought that I had it all planned out and that I was going to quit UNK and head to MMCC. What am I going to do? Not sure. I have no idea and am so confused. Nothing is working out the way I want it to. Should I stay at UNK, go to MMCC or go to CMU? I even could go back to Boise State if I wanted to, but I didn’t love it there. So confused. Who would have that that it was a bad thing to have so many options. The only problem is how do I pay for all this stuff? lol.

So things have really changed over the last few days and I am kind of freaking out. I have decided to attend Mid Michigan Community College this fall instead of going back to UNK. It was a tough decision but I think that it is the right decision for me right now. I am going to pursue an associates in visual arts but on my way to that degree I am going to pick up an associates of art in art. I can get that degree in my first semester. It really doesn’t mean much but I think it is cool. I have a bachelor’s degree and a master’s degree but I never had the chance to walk across the stage to pick up my diploma. I really want the chance to do that. I want my family to be able to see it too. I want to possibly work in graphics or photography or instructional media. I am working toward a better future and hope that it all works out.

Yesterday was such an amazing day. My Mom took me to the casino and I actually won a jackpot. How awesome is that? Then I got a free lunch at the buffet because the lady in front of us in line had a coupon and it was for $40 so she paid for my lunch. It was such a great day and so much fun. It is a total first for me to win anything at the casino. People laughed at me when I got my numerology profile for 2012 online and it said that 2012 was going to be my year. It also said that my finances will get a big bump this year. So far, so good, huh?

Wow, didn’t classes just end for Fall semester? Can’t believe that it is that time again already. I actually decided to drop one of my Teacher Education classes and added an Art class. Not sure how that one is going to be but we’ll see. Should be interesting. It is titled “Art Education in American Culture.”  I hope that there is actually some hands-on stuff to do. It would be really boring to just read stuff about art and then write papers. Yuck! Can you believe that I actually want to do projects? I am easily bored and I hate reading textbooks. There isn’t a textbook for this class so I am taking that as a good sign. My other class is “Philosophy of Education.” For the first assignment, we have to write a biography. Not thrilled about it because the Professor wants us to add a Photo of ourselves to the biography. I hate that. I do not like the way I look right now. Going to have to give myself a makeover first. lol.

Later…

So, I figured out which classes I am going to take for my degree program and wrote them all down. I am going to concentrate on ART. As a kid, I have had three passions:Art, computers and Anthropology. I know that I am a geek. I figure that I should do what I love and got a degree in instructional technology to take care of the computer passion. Now I am going to work on the Art by getting my next Master’s degree, then I will work on the Anthropology part. As far as the Art part, I want to concentrate on Photography and graphic design (digital arts).

Sometimes I read what people write on Facebook and think “Wow, How can these people believe that.” Then I stop and realize that they dislike or believe in different things than I do and probably think the same thing about people like me. Except that I don’t say hateful things about people that do not believe the same things that I do. Maybe that is the real difference, the hate. I guess that I can see past the propaganda and others can’t because they let the hate that others have for some people become their hate too. They take the word of other people and do not do their research on the subject. It truly is weird to me. There needs to be more love in this world and way less hate!

It is 2012. I am so excited. I am breaking down barriers this year and it is going to be an awesome year! Even though today is the start of the year, all my work starts tomorrow. I am starting my new exercise and diet program. WooHoo. Change is coming.